[zero] Jsem.

[jsem]

I have no name and many names, none that feel like they fit, like they mean me, but many that I answer to anyway. I will answer to whatever name you know. I often offer Lyotto to those who know no name at all. I am this boy, not a boy, and I am many things.

I am twenty-four.

I was born and raised on the east coast of the United States, technically the D.C. Metro Area, realistically out on the farm with at least an hour drive between home and almost everything. I graduated from high school with the same people I had known since my first day of Kindergarten and some people I had even known before that. I moved to the city, my state's capital, for university and the better part of four years. I spent one month in Guatemala and it was one of the most amazing experiences of my life.

I was raised in the church but religion is a very tricky thing. I am not the sort of person who feels comfortable in a crowd. I would say that you can take those statement separately or together, as you will.

I am mostly asexual.

I only find the male form attractive in an artistic sense. I have been one half of two romantic relationships and I am not entirely certain if I have ever truly been in love. I believe that perhaps I have but I may never know. I find that to be the most difficult part of all things that have no basis of comparison by which to identify the truth.

I rarely make the first move in any relationship. I am an introvert, without a doubt, but I am rarely socially awkward. I have no pride but I have a great deal of self-respect. I do not regret my actions, I learn from them.

I am unwell.

I was once bedridden for the better part of almost four years. I am, as a result, wary of most doctors and do not believe in prescription medication. I suffer from many afflictions which were once merely side effects, such as overactive anxiety, depression and adrenal fatigue. I have an eating disorder as a result of medical hunger suppression. I believe that there is a great difference between using medical issues and disorders as reasons and using them as excuses. I do not believe that anyone who uses them as the latter deserves my respect.

I rarely mean to preach but I realize that it may often seem as if I do. I have a great deal of passion. I am the sort of person who feels the need to make no mistakes in expressing how I feel.

I am a creator.

I make art because art is my life. I string words because words are my blood. I am nothing without creation. I will make something of that fact some day.

I am only one part of a whole.

I will not grant access to those I do not know but I will not hide my heart in a matchbox. I will not place my life under lock and key. I will not compromise my honesty.

I am this boy, not a boy.

I am.

Jsem.